Current mood:

worried

So, at the very least, I got two hours of being in physical presence of other geeks today. Which... was nice. But... it kind of scares me at the same time.

I'm terrified of drifting away from people. Because it seems to happen so easily. And.... I hate being left behind.

I'm applying to go to Japan next year. This was decided ages ago by me, and I want to follow through. But... I found out today that, although we planned to, two_powers may not be coming with me. And... that's hititng me a lot harder than it should. I... really do want her to go with her, but she has sane and sound reasoning for being hesitant. IE: the job market. Which... is also partially why going now is good for me, go figure.

But... I guess.... either way... kind of....

I'm scared of losing touch with everyone. I-I don't know if it will happen or not. But.... I don't know. I feel like it's extremely possible. I-I'm not the type of person people strive to keep in contact with most of the time, for whatever reason. And.... I don't know. I'm scared.


There's other stuff to be scared of too, I know.

The fact that my muses have randomly been depressed all day (well, not really random, I think I know a few good reasons why, some of which I addressed earlier today, some of which I haven't) probably isn't helping matters.


...and I have to wake up for school in six and a half hours... ugh.... ToT



Also: From my drama prof's comments, I'm scared that I'm doing a small assignment incorrectly. And it involves making a lesson plan and... I find it really hard to know what I need in one when I'VE NEVER HAD TO USE ONE.
Sorry. Just... yeah. School = lots of little assigments and some big ones and.... I'm frustrated a bit. And I want time again. But I can't have it this year, apparently. Which I knew going in. But yeah.

On the bright side? I get to show off my baking skills tomorrow.